My thoughts of 2020
2020 is a year of challenges.
I thought it could not get better but yeah, it gets worst as the months passes
by. From wild fire to virus that turn the world to struggle so much but it
gives nature to heal. Powerful countries suffer a lot but it gives third world
countries to at its death door.
As for me, it drove me
to my cave and be alone again (I guess, alone means forever to me) but I’m
loving it where I don’t need to pretend to liking to talk to anyone but sometimes,
I miss the laughter and loud voices. All I got for staying at home are kids who
were breaking government protocols by playing outside my apartment building and
cars honking so loud.
If things will be back
to normal once vaccines will really prevent the Covid virus, I going to miss working
at home though sometimes I get bored because I have no one to talk too but I
love it when no one is bothering me.
I will not be going to
promise anything for myself in 2021 because I always end up breaking it anyway.
But all I pray is everything will be back to normal and that there will be no
more viruses to surprise everyone. And of course, safety, prosperity and good
health for my Family and as for myself, I wish and hoping I could find the one.
I still want to thank
2020 for teaching me that I need to save money and need to be very thrifty. My
2020 actually put me into a roller coaster ride and I ended up crying all the
time. I’m so stressed and I became like a garbage bag where everyone keeps on throwing
their trash on me. I just realized I had enough of it yet I’m still here, stress
24/7.
I never really have
courage or confidence to change things because I’m afraid I might fail. That’s
why, even though I had enough, I still continue working but not anymore, a
garbage bag. I just put barriers and not to care at all.
I always have a weak
heart. I wish I’m strong yet I’m weak.
Because of the virus, my
anxiety grows and just scared of going out and makes me a freak every time I inhale
the outside air.
Thank you 2020 for all
the teachings and for healing the world. I pray that 2021 will be a better year
for everyone.
I actually wanted this
for my 2021:
- working abroad,
vacation, find the one and get marry and have kids, and give my parents their
dream house.
But then, that is only what I want, I will leave
everything to God if he is willing to give me my wants.
For myself in 2021, I
am hoping you will not be a drama queen and to please be strong and be
confident.
Thank you.
